In my devotion time today I read an interesting story. This is quoted from the Centered curriculum that our church is currently studying:
Dan Rather, former CBS anchorman, once asked Mother Teresa what she said during her prayers. She answered, “I listen.” So Rather turned the question and asked, “Well then, what does God say?” To that, Mother Teresa smiled with confidence and answered, “He listens.” Rather didn’t know how to continue. He was baffled. “And if you don’t understand that,” Mother Teresa added, “I can’t explain it to you.”
Pat Wenger is one of the dear women in my life. When I ask her why she is so smart about people, she responds (with what I imagine is that same twinkle in her eye that Mother Teresa had), “I observe AND I do a lot of listening.”
Me being the eternal introvert, I actually giggled (to myself, of course). The truth is, sometimes I just don’t have words to explain the profound moving of my heart and spirit. So I just listen and trust God hears what I’m not saying in words, but what I am saying loudly within my soul.
Psalm 46:10 says quite clearly: ”Be still… (long awkward silence for many of us)… Be still, and KNOW that I am God.”
Most days, that is simply everything we need to do. Just shut up (that’s my SPP version) and BE STILL. In the being still, often we find we KNOW things that we might not have known — like the profound truth that HE IS GOD!!!! It’s that much… and that simple.
So, I’m learning –
1. Being still is easier for an introvert than an extravert. So, for being an introvert, today I’m grateful.
2. My friend, Pat Wenger, is one smart lady.
3. I have to purpose “being still” — turn off my phone, turn off the TV, not driving somewhere, not thinking about what errands I need to do. I’m not gonna lie, it’s hard to literally be still.
1. Try “being still” for two minutes today. Sitting still in your chair while texting does not count.
2. Then write down the first thing that comes to your spirit when your “stillness” is done.
Today, the first thing that I heard in my spirit was, “we need to do this more often.” I kinda said, “Um, excuse me God? Is that you?” To which I heard – “If you’d be still long enough, you’d recognize me!”
Ouch… and Amen!
My oldest daughter Anna gave us the sweetest gift last year by the name of Thatcher Edison Trent. I have officially lost my mind. I’ve heard so many grandparents say the very thing I am now experiencing myself — having grandkids is the best gift of life. I get it. I don’t know why it takes us so many years to just chill out and enjoy the journey of life, but it does. And as I watch Thatcher-Man begin to explore and acquaint with his world, I observe in awe and wonder.
As an infant, Thatcher is completely and totally dependent on others to meet his needs. He can’t walk, eat, eliminate by himself — utterly and completely dependent. It is a tender and precious thing to watch good parenting. And sweet Anna and her husband Collin are good parents.
I remember when Anna was born and I so desperately wanted to be a good mom. I remember thinking, “I am going to be such a good mom that my baby will never ever cry, because I will anticipate and meet each and every one of her needs.” Can you imagine? From the moment she was born (and was crying) I became, in my mind, an instant failure.
It’s so sweet to watch Thatcher cry from time to time and to watch his parents ‘let’ him cry. They know it’s important for him to express his feelings. A little crying isn’t going to hurt anything. And if his physical needs have been completely met (eating, diaper, no pain, whatever) then it’s an important lesson they are teaching Thatcher — that he can soothe himself. It’s so fascinating. All of that from a little bitty cry… but if you know me at all, I like to look underneath the surface.
So, I’ve learned…
1. It’s important to express your feelings.
2. It helps you learn trust when those needs are met (as in the case of good parenting).
3. I can soothe myself and it doesn’t always have to be about food — wait, did I say that out loud? Ha. Yes, I think for me I always want to soothe myself and others with food. It’s a love language. But there are other more beneficial ways to soothe.
4. Sometimes you just need a good cry.
As Thatcher has begun to grow and become more mobile, it has been awesome to watch him take on his world. One day, I was watching him for Anna, as she was working, and I literally followed him all over his house. He crawled, scooted, pulled up, tasted many things, shook many things, was awed by many things. He wasn’t interested in WHERE he was going; he was just enjoying every second of the journey — sometimes stopping and exploring right where he was, then moving on to the next thing that caught his eye. He put the things he found through his series of tests — the taste test, the shake test, the drop test… I told Anna pretty soon he’ll be adding the flush test. He marveled and wondered, and hollered, and laughed. He tried to share some unidentifiable things with me. He took great delight in the journey itself… never mind the destination.
And so, I’ve learned…
1. Take time to see what is around us. Delight in it, enjoy it, share it, laugh about it, test it out.
2. Not to be in such a hurry for the destination (who really knows what that is anyway) — simply enjoy the traveling and the sojourning.
3. Life is a compass not a stopwatch. We have time for a few side trips here and there.
4. I have also learned that grandparents and babies share the same nap schedule. No wonder we get along so well.
Because it all matters,
RAMBLINGS FROM THE ROAD November 30, 2012
25 years ago today, my twins, John and Jenn were born. Those two have been a source of joy, comfort, delight, giggles, and inspiration. I celebrate them today. And for lo these 25 years have treasured all these things in my heart.
I’m currently on the road with Jason Crabb (and seriously if you don’t know his music, get it NOW) . We have having the best time. I keep singing in my head that old Donny and Marie Osmond song, “I’m a little bit country, (and then I say), I’m a little bit Classical.” Anyway we are having fun. Come see us. We are getting homesick and the one thing that makes homesick better is to see our friends out on the road.
I’m trying to get into a work out routine. Which for some reason seems easier on the road. So I’ve worked out every day for at least 20 min cardio and many times 30 minutes. I kinda get bored working out, I’m not gonna lie. I’ve tried watching TV, reading a book or magazine. I finally said forget it I’m just gonna listen to music.
Funny thing happened…I like music. That may sound odd, since well, I DO music. But often when our business is music, we don’t find ourselves actually listening to music. But I loved it. I had an “ah-ha” moment on that treadmill. I’ve always loved music. I fell in love with music because I listened to it way back when I was a kid. I can’t believe I forgot that… it’s good to remember what once gave us joy and find it again.
During this holiday season, what do you need to find that once gave you joy? Cooking? Music? Dancing? Singing? Running? Planning a tea? It doesn’t even have to be something that someone else sees. Just finding the joy all by yourself. Whatever it is…I pray you find it and lavish your heart with the re-acquaintance of an old friend.
Be blessed today friends—